Hey there, guys.

It's been a long time, hasn't it? I know that I've been saying that I was going to blog for a while, and I had full intentions on doing so! But, then my laptop crashed and it's currently visiting the little Toshiba people in Texas for it's repair.

School is going well. My grades are still high enough to make deans list which makes me ecstatic. 3 more weeks until this semester is finished! Thank goodness! I'm beyond ready to be out of school for a month. It's so needed.

These past couple of months have been... pretty eventful. I've loved, and I've lost. I've won some, and other times I haven't been so lucky. I guess I'm okay, though. Actually, I've been pretty good lately. I'm feeling slightly moody currently, though. Earlier, I was just really irritated and angry for no reason. Currently, I'm feeling a little down. The fact that I'm upset is making me even more upset. I feel like a big ball of emotions. My little friend must be around the corner. She always wants to come along and fuck with my emotions. Curse being a woman!

I'm writting an essay for my English class. I love that I'm able to choose my own topic for my essays, though. This time around, I chose to write a paper on happiness. I know, I know, huge topic to cover. My train of thought throughout the paper has a nice constant flow, though. Anyways, happiness has been something that I've been spending an odd amount of time thinking about lately. Truthfully, I'm rather annoyed that it won't get off of my mind. Happiness is what you make it. As human beings, we have the right to be happy, don't we? I believe we do. I mean, we literally have the right. We're only as happy as we allow ourselves to be, I guess. So maybe, it's a fault of my own. I'm letting the world stand in front of me, which results in me standing in my own way. I'm not allowing myself to be happy. So, I should be able to just shake it off and keep it moving, right? It's definitely not that simple. But, I still believe that it should be. I still believe there is nothing complicated about happiness.

I want to be the sun, the moon, the stars, the sky. When you wake up tomorrow, I want to be that person you thank the Lord for finding. I'm not looking for simplicity. We can have the complicated, the ups and downs, the in and outs. But, through all the choas, I just want to be your serenity. I want to be that place that you go to escape. I want to be your center. I don't want you to even be able to breathe without me. I don't want you to be able to sustain without me, so that I can pour life into you.. I just need for you...

blah. I was on a roll, right?

I'm going to go straighten my hair. I'm tired, but me and my cousin are going to get pretty and go hang out with our baby daddy Kyle. Mmhm, he's both of our baby daddy's. We keep it in the family.

ha.

later folks.